Berry's Weird Question Meme

Here I am, sneaking around when I suppose to study, haha~ But anyways I just couldn't resist to blog, it's a way of relieving stress for me. Ever since I start blogging, my depression time has lessen quite tremendously, I enjoy and look forward for events that I can cover, my inner dark fashionista just burst out of me and I really love it. I really wish to have more time to explore the pretty dark side of Second Life, one of the reason I want graduate quickly! Anyways onwards for the meme today~

Monday Meme Instructions: Copy and paste the following questions and answers into your blog post, delete my answers and input your own. Remember to leave your link in this meme’s comments so we can all come by, read your answers and secretly judge you.

1. Which was the last sim you visited? (Other than your home) +RMK+ Gothic Sim

2. Does your avatar look like the real you? In terms of shape, maybe a bit, but fashion-wise, oh she is the absolute opposite of me.

3. Do you wear underwear/pantied underneath your clothing when out and about on the grid? If it's necessary so that no prevert would zoom up my skirt, I will. But usually I wear pant-style clothing so I'm quite naked underneath those meshy clothing~ ;P

4. If you won a million linden dollars, what would be the first thing you buy inworld? First thing first, everything on my favourite list! [laughs] And then perhaps a house somewhere on the grid since my sis is very much interested in home decor. I totally suck at that!

5. Have you ever bought something in SL and the realized afterwards that you had already owned it before? Well... it's usually when I do MP shopping and come across with a lot of freebies then logging in to get it just to find out than you got like three of four similar items. Good thing it's just freebies and dollarbies for now.

6. Have you ever done anything in Second Life that would be considered illegal in real life? Biting people randomly would probably get me to jail in real life. Strutting down the grid with a rocket launcher at my back will consider me crazy and dangerous. Shooting people randomly and a bunch more that I rather not to tell... ;P

7. If you could go out on a date with any other avatar, who would it be? My super deep vampire crush, Winter Jefferson.

8. Who, in your opinion, was the greatest avatar to ever slive? Miss Strawberry Singh~

9. What is the most embarrassing things you've ever done inworld? I don't really remember much, but when I was newbie, I hung out at The Shelter, chatting and dancing. The whole time I didn't realize my speaker was on and I talking to my friend in my original language. So everybody was like, "Who the hell talking?" "I;m hearing weird sounds" and I was clueless since I mute the SL sound to listen to my own songs. After a while I knew what happened and just kept my mouth shut.

10. If your avatar had a mind of its own, what do you think it would say to you? "Gurl, hurry up and make up your mind already!" -This is since I take the longest time to figure out my styling and choosing a background for my pic-

My Styling

Hair @ .ploom. - Hoshi

Catsuit @ LORIEN - Sci fi Black Catsuit

Skin @ Ryuuko - Opal Milk (freebie in store)

Eyes, tattoo @ ~By Snow~ - Indogene eyes & Hexagon Face tatoo [in same pack]

Techy stuff @ [KONG] - freebie fatpack at Korean Community Sim

Berry's Introspection Meme

After I read Miss Berry's Introspection Meme as well as My Reflection post from her blog, sometimes I get that feeling where you look back into your life and wonders the 'what ifs'. Happens a lot to me especially when I go to sleep, I have a habit of over-thinking when I lay back on my bed and I know a lot of us do this as well. My avatar is what I wanted to be from real life, mainly I could express myself more virtually than in real. My friends always observe this habit of mine, where I'm pretty much spunky virtually but quite in reality.  I tend to spend more time in games I play rather than going outside. I try to change this attitude but it takes a long time for me.

My avatar don't affect me much but I do really get addicted to SL too much. Of course with the semester examination is tomorrow and I'm here writing on my blog. [Get your damn ass to study Aarya!!] Hahaha! So I really want to make this one post before I bury myself in notes so get along now~

Meme instructions: Answer the following questions and don’t forget to leave a link to your post in the comments.

1. Regardless of your current number, how old do you actually feel? I'm currently 19 years old, which many consider very young. I tend to feel different when in situation, I feel older when I'm at college or with my extended family but of course, when your at home, your mom just would never stop baby you and perhaps that why I can never feel older than 17 years old at my own home! I learn that when you're away from home, you will learn more about being independent to yourself and start making life decision. 

2. Which is worse, failing or never trying? Never trying, really what kills more than being a corner with your mind over-thinking about 'I should do that' 'What if' and those stuff. I don't know about you guys but that really kills me. Mainly why my friends call me brave 'coz I like to try everything that I can get my hands on! xD

3. If the average human life span was 40 years, how would you live your life different? Perhaps, having 21 years more to live, I would surely would everything to make my dreams come true. That is publishing my own manga and anime. [I'm an otaku, yeah]

4. Are you more worried about doing things right, or doing the right things? I'm more into doing the right things in things. Yeah, of course I focus on doing it right as well. Get it?

5. Would you rather be a worried genius or a joyful simpleton? I really am... a joyful simpleton. As to what my friends always see in me. I tend to relax even though there is something big going on and take it slow and mellow. And I pretty much hate that attitude of mine 'coz I become so lazy to do anything. Somebody please cure me!

6. Have you been the kind of friend you want as a friend? I've been trying to be everything what I want as a friend. Being there and being joyful but always there when you're sad and all. Though I can't help but to feel lonely sometimes. I try to reach out when my friends need so but then I could never reach out to others about my own feelings until I reach the breaking point. Another bad habit of mine. :D

7. Do you remember that time 5 years ago when you were extremely upset? Does it really matter now? What I only remember 5 years ago is when I cried so hard that my dad commented about my grades. It wasn't what he expected. Now when I think back, it seem silly of to have a tantrum just from that. [*blush]

8. At what time in your recent past have you felt most passionate and alive? I think it was when I joined the national boot camp after high school. That 3 months period of extreme military-like work-out as well as meeting new friends from all parts of the country made me more aware and reflect in life since that was the first time I was away from home more than 2 days. 

9. If you just won a million dollars, would you quit your job? The answer perhaps is what every teenager would say, OH NOW I WON'T HAVE TO WORK ALL MY LIFE! Yeah... no. I might have that desire but I like to have that hard-earned money to spend on things I like so that I would appreciate it more. Plus, when you have everything that you want just like that, won't it feel bored after that when you have nothing to chase after? ;D

10. If you knew that everyone you know was going to die tomorrow, who would you visit today? I could never choose. I love my family. I love my friends. My friend has been more than a family for me. I would probably make a huge reunion party and invite everyone that I have come across in my life, real and virtually, and thank each of them for making my life a meaningful one even it's just a small part.

11. What do you feel is the difference between being alive and truly living? 
Being alive: wake up, shower, eat breakfast, go to school/work, do your stuff in school/work, come back home, do more work/homework, watch t.v, eat dinner, sleep, rinse and repeat. 

Truly living: You wake up from bed excited of you will do today and wonders about the challenge that throw in your path. Being able to do what you really want and being super satisfied from it even though you only accomplish a small thing in life. With all your creativity flowing out like water and being inspired by everything in life. Of course, loving people just the way they are.

12. If we learn from our mistakes, why are we always so afraid to make a mistake? In every way, we do learn from mistakes, even from when we were newborn until now, we learn. Of course, when we make mistakes, we feel guilty, shameful and powerless, those feelings isn't really nice things to have so I think that is why we tend to be so afraid to make mistakes even though it teaches us to be more determine cautious. 

13. What would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge you? If the things are actually right thing, I would. Many things are done differently simply because of social pressure and such. People want that and don't want thing and blah blah blah. Communities think too much about what other think of them. In real, I could not do things as I like from family demand. I understand since I'm the only child so they want the best for me. In SL of course, I give a big, fat, GOODBYE and ignore them. Hehe

14. If you could offer a newborn child only one piece of advice, what would it be? Be happy and think more of yourself but never be selfish. NEVER!

Since this is an introspection meme, I present an introspective cat! Bye now, see you dollz again!

Aww don't worry!! I will always let you catch the red dot!! 

My Styling

Kimono, Hair, Tatoo @ BareRose - Sidare Zakura

Skin @ Glam Affair - Halloween Group Gift Skin

Ears @ Half Deer - Bunny Ears Gatcha [Origami - RARE] (it's my first rare!)

Place @ +RMK+ Gothic Sim

The Resurrected +RMK+

+RMK+ Gothic has been awaken from its slumber! Behold the new and fresh look of the sim!

The sim was closed for renovation and now open to public! The designers who are tenant of +RMK+ also been generous to provide re-opening gifts of sorts! The sim is now divided into 4 parts with each unique theme. Since the sim has been one of my fave sim of all time, I went there and had a short tour by Dev (blogger of Bishie Style SL as well as the +RMK+ blog). He was really kind and patient to guide me throughout the sim and points out some of the buildings that are created with storyline behind it. I'm very intrigued the stories and being very much inspired from it. Some of the characters are actually the same ghosts during the +RMK+ Halloween Game.

You guys will soon see what I have in store with the interesting stories! +RMK+ Gothic also hosting a photo contest which you can see the info here. I will also participating along as well. You guys can check out more pic at the +RMK+ Photo Contest Flickr. Below are the pictures that I've taken so far. Raw and unedited so you guys can see the pretty darkness of the sim. Enjoy! 

Of course, I just couldn't resist to add a small story to it!

Maria has been a chocolate-maker of the delicious Cadbury Cocoa for quite a while. Winter is coming closer and the wind is becoming more crisp and cold. Soon she need to make the special winter chocolate to be sold at the shop. For that she must venture out to get the special ingredients. Around the +RMK+ Gothic where anything is not what you expect it.

If you love my outfit, it is a Cadbury Girl outfit in which you have to join the +RMK+ group and then tp to the shop, click at the huge poster at the back of the store and get it! Even though I'm not into pink much but I really like dress style, lot's of frills which I love in Lolita fashion. I wish there would be more meshy Lolita dresses in SL. Or it's just perhaps that my searching skill is noob. You can see more re-opening gifts from Dev's awesome blog as well! See you again my dollz! 

"The TP clock post"

Styling

Outfit @ RokumeikaN - Cadbury Girl outfit

Monocle @ Air - re-opening gift

Hair @ Truth - Ebony

Skin @ My Ugly Dorothy - Freebie skin at Korean Community Sim

Armwarmer @ .la petite morte. 

Stocking @ White see-through leggings

Booties @ Warm brown bootie 

Reunion with Rockabilly Love

November 20th, 

Dear Diary

So it was after school and I'm looking out the window thinking for the first time you deployed for battle. It was the summer break after our last year of high school, you were to be deployed exactly one week after the release of high school.

 When you left it was the first time I had ever felt alone. So I became a teacher, that way I'd never be alone, I'd be surround by smiling faces of the children each day and each day brought me joy. Soon enough our rebellious friends grew old enough and got decent jobs as well, so our rebellious gang split up.

Four years later after a long stressful day at work, I come home expecting to feed my very lazy cats only to find out that my sister was there at the door waiting to surprise me with open arms and the same smile she shown as the day she deployed. After tears and hugs, we joined inside for a smoke and to reminisce on our old rockabilly days, where we both are today and what plans we'd have for our futures. 

We decided to live out our memories and dress like we did when we were young and we visited the same diner we always did on Saturday's with the gang. It was good to see each other, it was good to fill the void in the lonely teacher's heart. It was good, to live again.

I finally had time to blog in between my study time and I wanted to blog about the Rockabilly Fashion Fair with my lovely sister! We spent a lot of time at this fair and absolutely lovin' the retro items available! My sister is especially excited and quite an expert on the style as well. The story and styling is made by her and had much fun exploring our inner Rockabilly! The Fair will close by the 23rd of November so hurry up and have a retro trip at the sim! Credits are below and hope to see you dollz again~ <3

My Styling

#Navy

Hair @ Calico - Desiree

Skin @ 7 Deadly s[k]ins - Peggy [Rockabilly Fair special]

Eyes @ Clemmm - Fog White

Navy outfit @ Goth1co - Rockabilly Military Dress red

Pump @ Demotik - Mesh Peeptoe Heel

Place @ Yamato Memorial

#2nd style

Hair @ Little Bones - Temptation [Group gift]

Skin @ 7 Deadly s[k]ins - Peggy [Rockabilly Fair special]

Lipstick @ {Tilly} Red lipstick

Bra, short @ [LF] - Cute Pinup High Waist Shorts red

Jacket @ JStyle - Black Jacket 

Pump @ Demotik - Mesh Peeptoe Heel

Sis Styling

#Teacher

Hair @ Little Bones - Temptation [Rosewood]

Skin @ Pink Fuel - caramel

Eyes - Choco sweety eyes

Lipstick @ Pink Fuel - Harley Lipstick [Rose]

Cardigan @ Goth1co - Red Polka Dot Cardigan

Shirt @ /artilleri/ - Lajla Lurex Sweater [cream]

Skirt @ DRBC - Noir Pencil Skirt

Shoes @ Maitreya - Group gift Pump

Place @ Korean Community Sim

#2nd style

Hair @ /artilleri/ - Trixie hair [chili]

Skin @ Pink Fuel - caramel

Earring @ Dice earring

Shirt @ [:: JesyDream ::] - Knotted Shirt

Pants @ OSITO - Capri Pants 

Shoes @ Maitreya - Group gift pump

Twin's wear 

Tattoo @ {micelets} - Vintage mice tattoo [MP giftie]

Horrorfest - Sisterhood

The year 2097, the previous virus almost swept the earth clean of humans. But a clever scientist created the antidote at the nick of time. It was spread through air. The same way as virus did. But then, some who were infected turn into something else. Shape-shifters is what they call. It's uncertain if they truly could shape-shift but they really do posses the characteristics of some animals. Some looked like a tiger, some only grew tail. These population are very few and considered as exclusive pets to high rollers. Most kept as breeders and slaves for their good genes or strength. Some became dancers or thieves. What is sure that they are surviving in the harsh future world.

There is a secret club to where they hire these population. It was reserved to high status people and only with money will you inside. The spotlight is always on the slurty Rabbit Dancer. She was the popular and demanded among the dancers. Being a rabbit shifter makes her full with energy every time she dance, she would dance until the dawn breaks and money would be raining on her.

She is one of the best criminals in the town. She could snatch away millions' worth of jewelries ever before anyone could push the alarm button. As a Cat Burglar, she does what does best and what she really love. 

The recent increasing numbers of victims with bodies either wide open or severed were alarming. All of the victims are male and no connection between each other what so ever. Killing patterns are very random and no one could come up with logic explanation. That is, if they were to think a little out from the that tiny box, they might find a clue. The small clump of white fur in one of the man's nose, tit bits of glitters strangely inside the intestine of an gashed open man. 

Perhaps they would know, that the so-called weakling are secretly devouring them. One by one.

Hi again my dollz! Pardon for the long absence, I was away during the holidays and came back to college with a big slam to studying. I must tell you that I'll slacking on blogging a little for to study for upcoming exams. Haha! Originally I really wanted to make this as a Halloween post but I think it's too late for it and I'll opt for a Horrorfest post. Quick though, today is the last day of the event! Right now they are spinning the table to celebrate the success of Horrorfest! Credits below and I hope to you dollz again!
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Horrorfest SLurl

Horrorfest Website

My Styling Cat Burglar

Available at Horrorfest

Corset @ My Little Bat - Horror Corset [blood-gatcha]

Shorts @ SAKIDE - Hallow's Shorts [gatcha]

Blood @ ~SongBird~ - Will you still love me?

Eyeshadow @ The Stringer Mausoleum - Fashion Monster makeup [rare]

Jewelries @ AZE jewelries - Yum Kimil, 

Hair @ [COLORS] 

Skin @ 7 Deadly s[k]ins - MadPea hunt gift

Ear @ {PHYCHO:Byts} - Black Neko [Dark Kat hunt gift - past]

Boots @ [HTxDZ] - puss in boots

Sis Styling Rabbit Dancer

Available at Horrorfest

Rabbit ear @ DEADPOOL - Dead bunny purple bow

Outfit, cuff @ 90 Degress - Naughty Bunny

Eyeshadow @ Alli's - Nightmare eyes [store hunt gift]

Hair @ Truth - Rebel

Skin @ [PF] - Harley <Caramel>

Boots @ Diabolika